calling in

mmmm, that moment when you start to feel the magic come alive in your bones for experiences + humans that align with what you crave.

the music that lives in my heart when i’m calling in is ziggy alberts. he makes everything feel like magic.


if he can sit with something as unpredictable and unstable as the ocean 
throwing himself fully at the waves when they arrive
sitting with the stillness when they don’t
he will be a man of intuition.

if he can surrender to the rhythms of the ocean 
not moving away as it ebbs + flows, instead
moving towards the uncertainty
he will be a man of security.

if he can spend time alone with his board and the ocean 
maybe he’ll be a mirror
of the inner knowing that we are grounded
we are whole on our own ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 
but together

we can ride out what comes our way 
and rest in the moments
when we make it through.
— maybe he’ll be a surfer ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀


to the infinite magic 
of that internal garden
of yours. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 
weed out 
what is no longer needed.
what wasn’t yours
anyway. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 
grab the story
“when i let people
love me
i abandon myself” 
by it’s roots — ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 
use the new space
to plant
boundaries, with compassion
vulnerability, with playfulness 
love, with all parts of you

and then
in a softer way
look outside
of yourself. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 
begin again. 
he will meet you there.
— you needed to look inward, but it’s okay to look outside again ⠀⠀⠀


i’ve been sinking into
and i am ready
to rise
to look outward again.

i am ready to be seen
the way i’ve seen myself.
the way i see others.

i am ready
to be every version of myself.
the bold me
the wild me
the honest me
the emotional me —
to integrate them all
and for that integrated version
to be loved.


i want more “me, too”s — more values, feelings, interests that we relate to with a beautiful depth.

i want more small moments of magic — out of generosity and treating someone how you want to be treated, knowing we appreciate the same things.

i want space to grow individually — that is free and trusting that we will intentionally communicate when we have the time, groundedness, energy, and unconditional love to do so.

i want more space to hold for each other — feeling vulnerable yet supported, staying open and loving and gracious.

i want more challenging moments — the ones that make me squirm and hide and feel small until i recognise i’m safe to expand.

i want more days without shoes, driving in the trees to the water with ziggy and dermot feeling free. wild. open. more time playing and adventuring. healing and growing.

09.08 — be seen

i think you’re learning to see now,
my love, that it is not about
the hard work. the forcing.
if it is meant to be
you will keep your roots so firmly
in all that you are
and not be afraid to show him
the soil that you planted them in
all that nourishes you
and the damage that has lead you here.